Stranger in This Town

Sunday, January 23, 2011

A Long Overdue Update

I work in Houston, Texas now, and live in the surrounding area. I work at a law firm here, and commute in to work every day. The commute would be far worse had I stayed in Washington, D.C. and Northern Virginia. We are looking to buy a house. No profound and moving thoughts to share.

I've thought a lot about whether I am living the right kind of life: whether I've made some mistake by getting a job that takes so many hours, that is focused on high wages over social value. I look to the value that I create in all aspects of my life and seek to weigh it against what I could do with other choices. This is a frequent reassessment, but one I feel compelled to make.

Overall, I feel I am doing the right thing. I am married, I have a son, I work to keep a roof over their heads and to keep us all living comfortably. My wife works in a position that gives back greatly to the community, and my job helps facilitate that. We both have a large loan debt we need to pay off before going out and saving the world. I suppose that I could have avoided this life and landed a job somewhere that would allow me to travel the world and be in the thick of purportedly important events. I don't know but that I would be profoundly miserable.

Curious that after all of my wandering, all of my forced and self-imposed travels, I have found that what I desire the most is peace, stability, and the prospect of a home that does not move or change, even as we continue to grow. A part of me still seeks to travel and save the world, and a later chapter in my life may provide for that. I feel, however, that the work I do now and the roles I fill in my life at present do not preclude that from later happening. And if I were to stay here... well, I want to stay here... now, today, tomorrow, and for the near to foreseeable future. That is OK, it is good, and it may actually be the best thing I can ever do.

OK, so much for passing on the sharing of my thoughts...